Dunno if I should do that. I don't think I deserve to have any enjoyment atm.

Why not? If we're to be honest I don't see myself making it past 35, let alone 40. I tried the whole "boring myself to death" thing and to be honest that got exhausting after a few years. Just got to the point where I figured if I'm going to be waiting for however long, I may as well make the time pass a little faster. Better to get to hell with a few fewer regrets.

Everyone, please remember: you are all worth it. Life is short enough already and trying to make it shorter is a big disservice to yourself. Trust me, you all deserve at the very minimum some enjoyment in life, no matter what you tell yourselves. If there's anything that's negatively affecting you, best attempt to distance yourself from it if possible. Have proper nutrition, drink water, get some sunshine.

Hang in there guys. You'll get through this, we believe in you!

Because every time I had some enjoyment I'm punished for it.

Which is funny because I tried distancing myself away. But it keeps pulling me back and now it wants me to stay there. Possibly permanently.

Here's the thing though, yes you may have failed in the past but does that mean you give up and let it dominate you? Or do you continue to try and move forward? Remember, giving up means zero chance of escape, but trying to improve means making progress, no matter how miniscule.

Do you have an addiction? Me too! One of them is entertainment; no matter how hard I try to peel myself off my screen to do work it seems I can't get away. But that doesn't mean I should give up. Sometimes I suceed in pulling myself away, sometimes not. The principle here is to try.

Of course, it's also possible you don't have an addiction (I was merely speculating so please forgive me). First off, good, you're already doing better than me. But at the same time, the principle still applies; you have to try to get away. Again, giving up means zero chance of success, but perseverance more often than not will allow you to win in the end.

Again, have proper nutrition, drink water, get some sunshine; they all help even if it doesn't seem like it. And do something that relaxes you (e.g. music or something, breathing fresh air). Exercise often relaxes the body so maybe do that if you can.

SengalBoy, you fought cancer and won, I have no doubt you'll be able to pull through this personal battle you're fighting. Life's not always easy, but it's not entirely crapsack either. Hang in there pal, we're here for you (and anyone else who may be going through similar downhills).

Thanks. But I've already resigned on my fate.

Also just look at how unlucky I can be. No one likes me. Not in my country, not even here, no matter where I go.

And then you got assholes like Syntax who was a huge dick to me and had the balls not to remember it (as expected, coz he's an ass) but gets away with it.

Okay, first of all, 'no one likes me' cannot be true. I'm sorry, I know I don't know your personal life but there has to be at least one person who likes you. I mean, I like you, and so do many others here on this forum. And I'm not just saying this to cheer you up, I genuinely enjoy the stuff you post here. It's been absolute bliss seeing you recover from cancer and we hope you learn to really value yourself more.

And as for people being jerks to you, there are people who are also jerks to me, online or in real life, so you're not alone in this. We just have to learn to deal with it and move on; really, the only damage jerks can do to you is if you allow their harassment to get to you.

Please value yourself more SengalBoy. We keep saying this and we'll keep on saying this: we're here for you. And this also applies to everyone else in this forum: we're here for you. We may not be able to help you physically, but we'll try in any way to help you mentally and emotionally.

I did some digging and if you're that upset and holding that much of a grudge against someone just for saying they didn't think an idea you had was absolutely amazing, then you're the ass here. I'd somewhat understand if it was an actual insult, harassment, death threats, but simply saying your idea you framed as better wasn't actually better is absolutely nothing. Especially as this is something literally over a year ago. No offense, but if you want people to like you, maybe you shouldn't hold grudges like this over petty stuff that nobody else cares about and has no real consequence

And here you are, whining to other people about it, leaving me visitor messages continuing to call me an asshole and laying down the insults when I've told you I don't even know you.

Why not be an adult and either block me if I'm such a problem, or, I don't know, tell me why I'm such an asshole. Because honestly, if you think *this* is being an asshole you ain't seen nuthin' yet and I've only restrained myself because of the rules of the forum and I genuinely don't know what the hell I did to you.

Are you referring to the Sabresaurus or whatever name they thought was a good idea? That's what this is about supposedly?

Is that all this is about?

So, uh, funny thing just happened to me.

In my university, we get a 'break week' mid-semester that we use to take a break from our classes and catch up on work.

So, last week one of my courses had a 'study week' where we had no class and instead used it to study for that course. For some reason I interpreted it as the break week. Probably should've doubled check.

In other words, I screwed up and ended up skipping class all of last week.

On the bright side, I actually did my assignments last week, so not a complete waste. And I have an extra break week.

So yeah funny story, how's your day?

Spiders are attacking my front porch, and scaring my folks who have to go to work.

Bit of an artists' block and planning ahead, but pretty normal here.

Fuck. I did a terrible thing. I was getting harassed over that stupid thing but it wasn't Syntax who directly harassed me. It was someone else who now that I remembered was banned. I still remembered that Syntax was merely disagreeing with me but that guy was siding with him so I thought they were ganging up on me for one small thing.

Syntax, I'm very sorry. All these time I had a grudge on you because I thought you were in cahoots with that other guy. I did something terrible, I don't expect you to forgive me.

I'm very sorry everyone.

Hahahahaahah...

you don't want to know.

Nope. We're cool. It was a misunderstanding. Glad it's resolved though.

Please though, next time you're mad at someone, simply talk to them and get more details or their side. That other person that was banned, I didn't even know them and by the time I got to that thread he was banned.

Water under the bridge for me here!

Hey thanks man. Again, sorry.

I'm going to meet my gender therapist next Thursday at Chase Brexton. I can't wait!

Good luck, and remember I've got 2 friends who Transitioned happily. If u need any help regarding this matter u have a friend in me for help.

Well, Netflix just announced the final season of Narcos: Mexico.

I'm not going to say I'm looking forward to it but I'm also not not looking forward to it.

Thanks. I'm not ready to start HRT yet and I hope they can understand that and we can work other goals in the meantime. I still need to lose weight and get my body hair removed.

Ayyyyy good luck!



In other news, I beat Metroid Samus Returns 100% in Fusiom Mode, where you get quadruple damage. I think I'm ready for Dread

Sharing this here because I'm getting way more kicks out of this than I should have.

I've fallen into a nostalgia rabbit hole. This picture's frozen and I can't

Get

Out

Of here

I feel incredibly stupid. Had no idea what HRT stood for until I Googled it just now. Though I knew what it‘s used for.

Pretty funny when he got shocked over the Megalodon form. Oh yeah, he seems to be working on his own tokusatsu (local hero suit?) as well.

Yeah, I have been checking Masahiro Inoue's youtube content occasionally and he seems to be wanting to do original toku stuff as a pet project of sorts these days. He wants it to be pink if I recall. And seeing him chat it up with Satoshi Matsuda about it and Matsuda being nothing like Ren + hints of Kansai dialect in the way he talks is a trip. :lolol

In Cuphead, there's a boss who's idle animation goes with any song.

I was not prepared for this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0A9unEY-V4

TwoKaiser's the best. :D

Seeing Norman Gene Macdonald gone is heart breaking

I wish the fly in my room would just go away...

I was up until 1 last night sitting in a hospital waiting room. Won't go into many details, but my life has kinda been... rough, to put it simply.

Sounds rough! You okay buddy? Hope you're doing a bit better now.

nOPE.

Woke up this morning with a splitting headache.

I dreamt a finger grew on my arm. It hurt every time it moved.

I hope you feel better. :)

Finishing TMNT (2012). Thursday I'm watching Doctor Who Generation I (1963 - 1996) on DVD through their 60th in 2023 and then it will be Rose forward as I have them up to Revolution Of The Daleks via Netflix rental.( Netflix up to Doctor Who The Movie - The Evil Within.)

Have any of you guys seen An Unearthly Child - The Evil Within out of curiosity?

Googled The Evil Within and got no results for Doctor Who.

It's an alternate title used by some fans for the 1996 movie. I don't see it get much use though

Oh, never knew that. Only ever seen the film be called The Movie or The TV Movie until now.

So apparently there was an incident in China regarding a mobile game (which I'm not gonna detail because I don't want to get too political and it's kind of a long story anyways) and now they're banning some portrayals of Chinese figures in games or something, meaning that in FGO the names of Chinese Servants are changed to whatever class they are + ID number (for example, Qin Sin Huang is now 'Ruler 229'), their art is removed and voices altered if not outright removed.

I...I'm speechless.

Yes, RIP. Norm's West Side Story spoof skit he did with RDJ and Will Ferrell is still my fav.