I hope everything's okay. Taking care of yourself is definitely a priority over fifteen-year-old Japanese TV shows.

I'm really sorry to hear that... hope things go well for you! I know how things like this can also make you want to get through your anxiety as quick as possible, so please; make sure you give yourself as much time as you need

I've been there. Don't apologize. It's smart to take time to rest and regain yourself. Hope whatever's getting to you gets resolved soon.

Thanks! I mean, I really enjoy talking about Kamen Rider, it's a fun part of my day, so if anything maybe I need to dedicate more time to it?

(I cannot dedicate more time to it.)

As for getting better... I'm not sure this is a Get Better sort of thing? It's more like a Be Aware thing. I'm new at this, so here's how I'm thinking about it.

I always thought of my thoughts and emotions as a house I lived in. If something made me sad, I'd see what was making me sad and move to correct it. If something was making me happy, I'd know what it was.

Yesterday taught me that my thoughts and emotions are a house, but I live outside of it. From the outside, everything looks okay. And then, one evening, smoke just starts billowing out the windows. It's weird and scary, because I'm not sure why that's happening, since everything seems fine. Coming to terms with the fact that things aren't fine is maybe the first step?

From there, we'll see. Running a business during a pandemic when your business partner is hurt and everything takes 25% more energy than it used to and you've got reduced hours so not as much can get done and you're narrowly avoiding litigation with a former landlord to get out of a closed store's lease... yeah, boy, can't imagine where that anxiety came from!

But, yeah, something to work on going forward. I guess it's nice to have a new hobby for the pandemic? Better than doing puzzles!

I feel for you, Die. I've been dealing with anxiety since I was a teen, it's definitely not something that "gets better" as much as you get better at managing it. Anxiety can be difficult to deal with under normal circumstances, but between the pandemic, all the social turmoil and personal tragedies (everyone's got them), this is a RECORD difficult time. Just know that you're not alone, Die. We don't know each other well, but if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to PM me. :thumb:

It’s okay if you’re feeling a bit down. I’ve been having similar feelings recently. Ironically, I managed to quell them by listening to what is ostensibly a sad song. https://youtube.com/watch?v=9rLuxtdPN4I

And I’m not too broken up about you missing a few days. I’ve found someone else doing something similar (though hers is more of an MST with plot) to pass the time.

Be patient. Hope everything works well for you.

Thanks, everybody! You're good people! We'll be talking about musical superheroes and the children they're raising before you know it!

I can only back up what everyone else has alread said, and add in that anxiety the worst. Take us through Hibiki on your own terms, man. It's been here 15 years already, it's not as if it's going anywhere.

So, honestly, thank you all so much. It's nice to have this kind of support from strangers on the internet! I did not think that's how strangers on the internet were supposed to behave! I have been severely misinformed!

But, and I appreciate all the folks who are cool with things slowing down, this is the part of my life that alleviates stress. Posting stuff about Kamen Rider, getting to hear from other fans, getting to talk about these shows... I know I've said it before, but this is my self-care.

When I come here and need to let you know I'm skipping a day... I mean, it's a bummer, I like doing stuff with these shows, but it's more of a Hey Heads-Up than I Am So Angry At Myself. I don't feel stress from these boards in one direction or the other. I only feel good things. Not being able to participate... it's more something I'm excited to return to, than anything else.

This place is good. It's good for me. Of all the things in my life I'd cut back on, I don't think this'll be one of them.

But thanks!