I've been watching Saber in spurts - generally five or six episodes, binged at once, then nothing for like a month. I'm not sure it's the optimal way to watch it, but I guess it's working? Idk, I'm not sure I'm burnt out, I just struggle to keep up with things week in, week out anymore. Pandemic has my whole life turned to jelly, weeks now amorphous nothings that all blend together, so it's easy to forget, say, I'm meant to be watching Kiramager and I think I last saw an episode of that a month ago.

Yeah I'm trying my best to take my mind off of all that...

Well yes but right now I'm on a hyperfixation (and I am using that term properly) overdrive.

I've spent the last week slowly unraveling everything that went into the production of Samurai Troopers and it is amazing for a show that 90% of people have never heard of.

Oh. Cool!

I decided to use my female name (Michelle) and pronouns on the Internet. I still have use my male name (Michael) and pronouns outside the Internet because I haven’t started HRT yet and getting an official name change takes a long time to do.

After a decade and a half of searching and half-rememberance, I finally found an old fic that was disproportionately influential on me in my younger years.

Was it a Samurai Trooper/Ronin Warrior inspired piece?

I finally came out to my family, and they are very happy for me. I do feel like that my mom is not so happy deep down. She seems to have very mixed feelings about it despite telling me otherwise. I know I'm 30, and I should not care, but I still live with her at home.

More specifically a Ronin Warriors x Sailor Moon crossover piece.

I actually emailed the original author last night in the vain hope they're still around (or at least still using that email) to see about reuploading it to AO3 or something since it's on an angelfire site at present.

I know that feeling. I live apart from my parents and I'm only out to my mom but I don't think she "gets" it.

I'm proud of you! It takes a lot of courage to come out. And while I don't know your mother, just give her some time.

She feels about it better now. My doctor appointment went out today. No health problems besides being overweight. They found a place that can help with my transition in Columbia, Maryland. I will start gender therapy when I’m ready. Right now, I need a job and lose weight.