Couldn't agree more. Hence, my disconnection with Disney, Star Wars, and a lot of western media in general.

Of course, being the optimist I am, I can find it in myself to still find joy or anticipation for some things, just not as much as I used to, and in very few.

No offense but BULL. SHIT.

Yeah I'm gonna side with Sengal here. Too much of my own experience with suicidal tendencies has ended in me being told this, told that my life matters only to keep others from being sad.

Sengal, man, talk to us. We're here to listen, if there's stuff you need to say. I might not know what to say, but I can at least hear you.

SengalBoy, if there's any problems feel free to talk to us. We might not be able to help you physically but it's amazing how much stress one can receive just be having someone listen to them.

Your life should matter to you first before anyone else's opinion of it.

That's fair. I didn't mean to upset anyone. Just thought I could help out, since gosh knows, that's helped me from having any suicidal thoughts.

Nah you're good, moreso just speaking my mind on things.

On a different note, package from a friend arrived today. Sent me a bunch of exotic snacks, so I get to try some new foods.

Nah it's okay. But really. THere's no hope. Best I can do now is wait for recurrence.

And what if it doesn't happen? How do you intend to bide your time?

Just wait it out till I die probably I don't have any energy either.

You might want to grab a book at least. That could take a while.