[KyoryuGreen]

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Originally Posted by KRX

Could I get some help on this one?

For the past two years, I've been questioning my feelings towards my best friend. It used to be that I could say with 100% certainty that I only thought of her as a friend.

Then, in 7th Grade, I had a dream.

In this dream, I was in a room that was a bit like a mall, except everything was gray and all of the racks and shelves were empty, forming a labyrinth. There were two other people in this dream: my at-the-time crush, and my best friend (who was only my friend at the time). I was following my ATTC through this labyrinth. However, I made a turn at one point, away from her, and found my best friend walking toward me, smiling.

Upon reflection, I noticed that it was after this event that people began shipping the two of us together. The most famous case of this was my 8th Grade Literacy Block teacher. She was convinced that, at the very least, I had a crush on my best friend. It used to be that I would imagine my ATTC as the person that I would marry. Now, however, my mind defaults to my best friend.

The parts of my day that I look forward to the most are when I can see her. Whenever I'm talking to myself, I always pretend that I'm actually talking to her. I want her to be happy, and I try to seize every opportunity that I can to at least get a chuckle out of her. I know that I can count on her to lift my spirits whenever my family puts me down in the dumps.

And yet, despite all of this, all of the motivations, thoughts, emotiions, actions, despite all of this…

I'm not sure whether I love her as anything more than a friend.

I can understand the reasons for why—my religion won't allow me to pursue anything beyond friendship with her, I'm a chemical target-practice range known as a teenager, and I don't have a basis for what true love is. Nevertheless, I'm asking you what you think. I could really use a little human guidance on this one.

Well why does your religion stop you from pursuing anything beyond friendship? Also honestly figuring out if your in love or in love with the idea of being love are two very different things. The best thing you can do right now is just be her friend and hopefully something will help you figure this out. I know this might not be the best advice but I hope it helps somehow.