[Kamen Rider Die]

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Originally Posted by Switchblade

I hope everything's okay. Taking care of yourself is definitely a priority over fifteen-year-old Japanese TV shows.

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Originally Posted by Kurona

I'm really sorry to hear that... hope things go well for you! I know how things like this can also make you want to get through your anxiety as quick as possible, so please; make sure you give yourself as much time as you need

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Originally Posted by DreamSword

I've been there. Don't apologize. It's smart to take time to rest and regain yourself. Hope whatever's getting to you gets resolved soon.

Thanks! I mean, I really enjoy talking about Kamen Rider, it's a fun part of my day, so if anything maybe I need to dedicate more time to it?

(I cannot dedicate more time to it.)

As for getting better... I'm not sure this is a Get Better sort of thing? It's more like a Be Aware thing. I'm new at this, so here's how I'm thinking about it.

I always thought of my thoughts and emotions as a house I lived in. If something made me sad, I'd see what was making me sad and move to correct it. If something was making me happy, I'd know what it was.

Yesterday taught me that my thoughts and emotions are a house, but I live outside of it. From the outside, everything looks okay. And then, one evening, smoke just starts billowing out the windows. It's weird and scary, because I'm not sure why that's happening, since everything seems fine. Coming to terms with the fact that things aren't fine is maybe the first step?

From there, we'll see. Running a business during a pandemic when your business partner is hurt and everything takes 25% more energy than it used to and you've got reduced hours so not as much can get done and you're narrowly avoiding litigation with a former landlord to get out of a closed store's lease... yeah, boy, can't imagine where that anxiety came from!

But, yeah, something to work on going forward. I guess it's nice to have a new hobby for the pandemic? Better than doing puzzles!