[Guyver Spawn]

Personality have been in the dumps for the last day or two. I will be turning 25 soon and I still feel like any girls are never into to me. With every girl I find, they turn me down, end up being a fake (on online dating websites), back stab me or I just become a friend only. I've experienced nothing but rejection. I've read articles and articles on how to be confident, what women want, and how to be a man. I'm a nice guy and I do like nerdy stuff, but that's how I'm. I don't act odd or strange around other people. I act normal, but yet no one ever wants to like me. I can be emotional than most men, but I'm not a cry baby that cries at everything. People tell me that I'm more aware of my emotions in a realistic way than most people and it's not a bad thing.

Girls just want the bad boys or the gangster type of people. I feel like the people that like the stuff that I like are hard to come by and are already taken. I also have aspergers and I feel like no like me because of it. I talk, think and walk like a normal person. No one could tell if I told them. It's not like I'm like "Hey I have aspergers!!!". I would love to be with someone that understands me, someone has something in common with me and can like me no matter what. Even if they know if I have aspergers that they can like and love me.

Sometimes I feel is loneliness, and sometimes I just want cut off from my own humanity. I fear that I will be lone for the rest of my life. I do wonder if it is better off dying young or living alone for the rest of your life. You could say "You will find someone". What if you did find that special someone, but they are always taken by someone else when you get the chance. I feel like that my life is over .