[BagJo]

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Originally Posted by Kamen Rider Die

Thanks! I mean, I really enjoy talking about Kamen Rider, it's a fun part of my day, so if anything maybe I need to dedicate more time to it?

(I cannot dedicate more time to it.)

As for getting better... I'm not sure this is a Get Better sort of thing? It's more like a Be Aware thing. I'm new at this, so here's how I'm thinking about it.

I always thought of my thoughts and emotions as a house I lived in. If something made me sad, I'd see what was making me sad and move to correct it. If something was making me happy, I'd know what it was.

Yesterday taught me that my thoughts and emotions are a house, but I live outside of it. From the outside, everything looks okay. And then, one evening, smoke just starts billowing out the windows. It's weird and scary, because I'm not sure why that's happening, since everything seems fine. Coming to terms with the fact that things aren't fine is maybe the first step?

From there, we'll see. Running a business during a pandemic when your business partner is hurt and everything takes 25% more energy than it used to and you've got reduced hours so not as much can get done and you're narrowly avoiding litigation with a former landlord to get out of a closed store's lease... yeah, boy, can't imagine where that anxiety came from!

But, yeah, something to work on going forward. I guess it's nice to have a new hobby for the pandemic? Better than doing puzzles!

I feel for you, Die. I've been dealing with anxiety since I was a teen, it's definitely not something that "gets better" as much as you get better at managing it. Anxiety can be difficult to deal with under normal circumstances, but between the pandemic, all the social turmoil and personal tragedies (everyone's got them), this is a RECORD difficult time. Just know that you're not alone, Die. We don't know each other well, but if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to PM me.