[ShiShiLeo]

Regret is a full-on theme now.

It is something I think about all the time.

Looking back at the decisions we've made in our lives, especially the tough ones, is irresistible. Saying yes to one thing often times means saying no to the thousand of other possibilities. We can dwell on what we think were mistakes and those consequences can paralyze us so much that we no longer take risks, try new things, or simply do nothing when we should.

As someone who has made his fair share of mistakes in the past, ones I'm still contending with to this day, I know there is no sure-shot solution to constantly thinking "what if?". But there is one thing that worked for me.

I met my current partner and we fell in love. The thing about love is that it forces you to look at the world outside of just yourself. When I fell in love with her I really no longer had any regrets in life because every decision I made ultimately led me to her.

Meeting her doesn't change my past or suddenly redeem me of the mistakes I made and people I hurt, but it allowed me to accept the choices I made as mine. You cannot change your past, but you have complete control over how you feel about it in the present.

I really connect with the characters in Dynazenon. They've been given the profound gift of seeing what life would have been like if they made a different choice. They get to experience the "what if" and ultimately find that it changes nothing. There are just so many things out of our control.

I wonder if this means that Yomogi has a life of no regrets, or at least doesn't dwell on them. I wonder if he, like me, doesn't care because everything has led him to someone he loves.