[TokuKnight89]

This has all been a little strange and I've been uncertain where to place this mentally.

I learned of it yesterday when I went into work (one of those who does go in from time to time on Sundays) and learned about it from a co-worker. I immediately had to start looking and even then things were still in the "Hope it's a rumor" phase. It quickly became clear that it was not. Another friend would share a text not long after regarding the news.

I did have the ability to see him at a convention. It felt odd cause there was an agent or representative or convention organizer who went up to those in line and tried to ask us what we were going to ask JDF. I never understood the reason why. I also think a kid was invited up to the stage to join him.

A recent convention I went to was supposed to have him in attendance, but he cancelled so he could supposedly work on the fan-film.

There have been things about JDF over the years that leave me a little uncertain as to how to feel about him. Times he was understanding and amenable and times when he was just an extremely problematic person. Personally, as far as the franchise and the character are concerned, I don't share the "Tommy is the GOAT" sentiment that most in the fandom share.

All that said, I know that this is a significant blow and I don't want to take anything away from the fact that someone has passed on. I also hope that this might bring increased attention to pressures that lead to suicide. I didn't see this coming as far as JDF was concerned cause I don't think I fully knew or understood his bouts with depression, which suggests that this was a constant struggle for years which might not have been addressed as he might have needed, a concern I personally share since I've had my own bouts with depression and uncertainty and mood swings and been incapable of finding the right therapist.

Don't dismiss your mental health! It matters even if others tell you otherwise!