[acdcguy]

What's shakes me down to my core at the moment is the alleged method of which JDF took his own life. Not too dissimilar from Robin Williams just 8 years prior. Two people I admired growing up gone in such a fashion. I just came across a distasteful meme about the subject matter that made my emotions elevate. Not because I was mad at the meme or the person posting it. Laughter and mockery is a coping mechanism for some. No, I just keep seeing the imagery of the method used in dreams/day dreams of as a possible outcome to my own inevitable demise. As someone who struggles with neurological divergency and anxiety it would be a lie to say I have never had suicidal thoughts. The thoughts of being alone being usually the strongest which I can speculate might have been on JDF's mind at the time. A lot of us get too busy with our own lives we never stop to see how those around us are doing. Humans are social apes. We need physical contact with others of our own species to show intimacy that's not always sexual in nature. Platonic cuddling, hugging, and just being close with those can mean a lot to those who are starved for human contact. Therapy and medication is not always the answer. Some times it's just being there for your fellow person letting them know you aren't alone and you aren't weird for wanting human contact. It baffles me to see how Western society has made intimacy exclusive to monogamous romantic relationships. And in my opinion is one of the many causes contributing to mental health issues today. There are many other factors I can only speculate as to what might have contributed to JDF's decision to take his own life that I won't elaborate on. It's just not the time or place. Point is I can relate and it's scary. Please make sure your friends and family never feel neglected.