[Kamen Rider Die]

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Originally Posted by Fish Sandwich

->Joins boards to vent frustrations with Ghost
->Does own fake-out death storyline half a decade later

Unlike Ghost, I promise not to do this three or four more times, to increasingly diminished drama.

And I appreciate the other, less Ghost-inspired musings! I don't know that I ever thought people expected a certain level of output, so much as I originally enjoyed the steady progress of making my way through a show, and the schedule helped me to stay on task. I like routines, probably as the result of some undiagnosed spectrum stuff, and there was a soothing reliability to knowing that another episode was just around the corner, and another chance to refine my thoughts along with it.

As my circumstances changed from the whole A Global Pandemic Ended thing -- IRL, not Ex-Aid -- that aforementioned reliability became a difficult balance, and eventually a pressure. However, the brief window of absolving myself of that pressure also reminded me of how much I like the basic experience, and its roots in that Ghost exploration, where I just sort of wrote what I wanted, when I wanted. I like that, and doing Outsiders 7 out of absolutely nowhere yesterday really reactivated that part of my brain -- writing as a hobby, instead of as an expectation. No one ever put that on me, the obligation, but I somehow made myself feel like it was there. I don't know. I'm really weird, and doing this for so long made me forget why I started.

It's nice to think about letting my passion burn a little brighter, now that I've remembered how vital it is, you know? Just like that one show... I want to say Kiva?